December 2011
47 posts
A Selfish Proposal
A single knee
Taken in fear
And here I am
Directly before you
Plotting my own demise
Because somehow I feel
The descent itself
Outweigh the agony
In it’s holistic majesty
Not because you love me
Or because of how I look
Or how I act and speak
Or anything about what you see me as
But because of what you are to me
Never have I wanted or needed
Anything so much as this
As you
I...
Remember-Me-Not
Remember me not for the things I say and do
I do not wish to be an absolute
Make me no chronology or list
I wish to be more than my actions
More than my words
Remember me as a feeling
Remember what is different when I am gone
Hold on to that
I want to be remembered as something
Not for something
As what made you smile during a rainstorm
Or what made you cry in the sunshine
I want to be...
Rationalizations of an Insomniac
It’s because I think of things
My brain must never stop
Or I may fade into the darkness
From which no man can return
If I ever stop to focus on one thing
I may just suddenly combust
Or implode into ash and dust
That’s why I never somnambulate
I only move in daylight
Or by moonlight is the day has been turned off
Flick a switch and switch the lights out
Expand all the...
Eye of a Storm
Standing in storms
Watching clouds cover sunshine
The sky dims and darkens
As a blanket shades a lamp
And it catches on fire
And burns the whole throw
Casting new light through singed chasms
Holes in that blanket
Where the bulb has burned through
The threads have fallen
They’re woven anew
Clouds may dissipate
When all their water’s gone
And they’ve gone
I stand in...
Self
I am myself
And you are you
That is not my fault
Or my responsibility
You are ugly
Hair so dead
Eyes with shades drawn
Revealing no soul
Splotches like paint
Or a cracked, old wall
Instead of smooth skin
Nose too big
Clothes too small
Stomach and appendages unwieldly
And awkward
You have nothing
Nothing
You’re everything I wish I wasn’t
And all that I can hope to be
...
Apology
I apologize for my imperfection
Only because I know it signifies
The fact that you have a warped sense of reality
In which there is such a thing as perfections
Thereby making me something different from it
And for that I am truly sorry
My only regret will have been encountering such lunacy
Without the capability of reversal
I apologize for my imperfection
I am so sorry that you live...
YOU WITH THE FACE. IT'S THE LAST TMI TUESDAY OF... →
The Decay of an Idea
Ignoring a problem
Only makes it fester
It mkes it more annoying
And you notice it more
Facing that problem head on
Give you a headache
Skullbashing braindead monsters
Might split your mind in two pieces
Into pieces
Ignoring the problem will let it fester
Facing it head on will make your head burn
But you’ll be headstrong
Nothing will fester
Nothing’s infected
Headaches...
Blinded Lies
At last and all at once I see the light of truth
It shines in darkened corners
Where the mind may sleep for days
It wakes up sleeping innocence
It disturbs the peaceful rest of all
And shakes the Earth
The light of truth brings darkness
For only a light may cast a shadow
Illumination brings darkening
An earthquake, a plague, a flood
A pestilence upon all who live and dwell
At last I see...
Perfect
Never in this world
Or any other
May you refer to me as perfect
Do not even use a form of the word
Unless that form implies a lack thereof
I would never want to be perfect
Not that I would ever be perfect anyway
Perhaps perfection is relative
I believe it to be a lie in any case
Without flaw there is nothing
A perfect example may exist
If you use a human being as a perfect example
Of...
Spice
Add a dash of spice to any life
And watch your timer
Those spices marinade and tenderize
But watch how long you cook
How long you steam and simmer
That spice may add some flavor
To a bland and fading carcass
But one must not forget how nature is
The bland, unseasoned starting point
Provides the body, not the trimming
Yet what is enjoyed most is always the meat
We are only what we are...
Cake for Breakfast
In other worlds we lived in once
In dreams and stories told
The prince would slay the dragon
And we’d all be home for Christmas
We would smile and laugh and sing a while
To celebrate our triumphs
In fairytales and fables of our youth
We would eat cake for breakfast
With whipped cream for dessert
Elephants were tiny creatures
In our pockets
And mice could talk
And cats could sing
...
Salt on a Fresh Wound
It has been said that we are all nothing but dust
Stardust, to be exact
Insignificant specs of the most beautiful phenomena
We are beauty
We are infinitie
We are defined
And yet we are hideous, finite and impossible to describe
Humanity is dust
But existence may be relative
You are all scars on a timeline
In a life so far spent decently
When summed up
Each of you took some blade and...
Wicked Words
Words are wasted on the wicked
And by them
Selfish arrogance corrupts the candid
Honesty is not for those who cannot understand its merits
The wicked misuse honesty as a guise for insult
The sarcasm implemented by poets
Serves as honesty even if harsh
Hidden among punchlines and carefree commentary
Words are wasted on the wicked
Who use them to destroy
But words have powers beyond...
A Letter to my Lady
Dearest Elizabeth, patron of all,
How can I stand to be near to you?
The heroine of heroines
The queen of all the headstrong
Princess of wanderlust
You have stolen all my thunder
You, the empress of the ashes
Of burned pages at your door
Maker of ways, lady of masculininty
King of the tomboys
Object of my affections
You are much too strong for me
You are all I want to be with
...
Alice
PANIC!
The queen’s gone missing!
MADNESS!
Madness, I say
This madness stems of badness
In the mind of the once kind
I say you’re mad
Completely bonkers
Must be bad
Completely gone into the shadows
Into the dark corners of the mind
Where I live
Festering in eternal growth
That agony of birth and renewal
Light in a dark room
Where bats and cats dwell
The queen is not...
J'Adore le Gateau
If it is the desire of our great monarch
That we, the bourgeoisie, should partake in dessert
Then I say we should
I’ll have several pastries and delights
If she would only provide us the ingredients
She couldn’t begrudge us those if she wanted to
If only she knew of our need
Dearest love, wife of my king, can you hear me?
We have no bread
Oh silly girl, we don’t have...
Nickmas OR The Silly Thing about Christmas
The silly thing about Christmas
Is that we need an excuse
To be kind to people
To give them presents and show we care
Why couldn’t every Saturday be Christmas?
Why can’t we just give gifts to the people we care about
All the time?
Just to show them we think about them
Presents are only on special occasions
But the present is constant and unchanging
Maybe they call it that to...
Oh, Albert
There are plenty of fish in the ocean
I would know
I am one of them
But let’s be honest
I like cats
And they’re awfully far away from me
Fish consider me a genius
Creatively
Academically
Mathematically
But I love a cat
Cats climb trees
It only wants me if I’m as smart and good
Fish can’t climb trees
I’ve been made to look stupid
Cause I can’t...
Nick is coming home.
Tomorrow is my favorite day of the year. Well, let’s be honest, Sunday is, but that day isn’t as important as tomorrow is. Cure it throws me into the picture and that’s awfully important, but what make tomorrow shine all the more is that he’s coming. My best friend in all the world will be in this country as of tomorrow. It doesn’t matter that I won’t see him...
On the Rocks
Let’s get a drink, just you and me
For an hour so ritualistically
Inside an hourglass
Don’t let it end too fast
We have an hour of sand
Please understand
Let’s get a drink, just you and I
We can laze about on the sands of time
We can talk all the while as we lie on the beach
Fully clothed, fully naked, his own to each
We can let time roll in
The tides change, we live...
Together
Together we could go to sleep
Or even write a dream to live
And never have to slumber for
That dream can be reality
We could dream in the daytime
Forsake sleep as a source of rest
We could rest together and forever
Just like we’re meant to
Seasonal Confusion
Rain in December is a false sign of Spring
As Winter has only just begun to begin
And Fall’s breath is now only just letting go
And still we have not gotten any snow
The Summer of Indians feeds into Winter
Just like a paper cut may really be a splinter
Seasonal shifting, in Winter it rains
But rain in the Summer still remains
A powerful thunder storm like a blizzard
But in the heat...
Black Licorice
I am not a gummy bear
But if I was a chewy candy
In the shape of a playful teddy
I would have to taste of licorice
They would have to introduce my flavor
So I could be different and murky
I could not be clearest pineapple
I am not to simple or see through
The surface alone is visible to the eye
But the inquisitive candy connoisseur
Or perhaps the more intrepid of palates
Might be a fan...
Confessions of a Corrupted Concubine OR Diary of a...
Once upon a time there was a young princess
She felt trapped
So she escaped
Her tower remained a glistening beacon of hope for young girls everywhere
A hope for entrapment and helplessness
This was no damsel
Though she was in distress
And so she flew away
Scaling down her ebony tower
Casting shadows aside
“I am a girl” were the words on her lips
Nothing else was on her at...
Ghost Ship Manifest
Plot a course for the other side
We’re making great time
Been docked for so damn long
But the trip it self is so ahead of schedule
Finally the passengers have boarded
They had affairs to settle and fares to pay
Fairness in fares when all are equal
First class is no class
And there was just one call
Heard through the ages
The ship’s hull is now full
Such baggage we’ve...
Diary Entry #Twenty3
Diary,
I hate to be short with you but you have so disappointed me
He knows, they all do
To battle I must go
Though I promise to never let you go
The battle is mine alone
I must wrestle myself to the ground and I must win
I must lose
The battle will go on for ages
For now I am done with you
You let me down
Cordially,
Thefa Llenan Gel
Diary Entry #7Hundredand4
Dearest, most lovely of all ears, my diary,
It has come to my attention that you have felt neglected
That is my fault
You see, life has turned so many different ways
I have lost track of forward, back or to the side
Even up and down seem skewed and blurred
All I know is how to go
And so I went
But it seems that in going I took a left
I left behind some things I cared about
You, for...
Regret is the Name on the Lips of the Devil
It’s been a long day but it’s still just beginning
Not yet to twilight the sun still burns bright
The furnace is endless and burning the day away
Singing the masks of the caskets of all
I have died just a little to know of your name
It hurts just a little to feel any shame
For the actions I know I can never take back
As the day comes to end in the night
But the moon was out all...
Unremembered Actuality
Sing to me of an age since forgotten
Once riddled with blood and conflagration
Sing to me a song of salvation
One of revolution and change
Sing with me of the stillness of silence
Of the longevity of memory unremembered
Memory is not constant, it can change
Memory defines nothing but history
But history defines the world
Memories are changeable but that does not change history
An event...
The Manifesto
Dependence upon social order cripples giants
A single blow might raze skyscrapers
Might level the Earth to a stark flatness
I renounce my endeavors
I reject the human condition
This world has no place for me
I am only what I am, and I am done
To never see those faces will be too much a reward
To drown is to fall asleep
I seek to slumber silently in sepulchers of stone
Stow me in the...
Disney Sucks OR Warrior Princess
Dearest Eric with legs
Her muted voice screams anthologies
Dearest prince of glass slippers
She has more class than your class
Dearest Charming, how charming
A sleep ends in kisses
The dreams have come true for the falsehood of man
Reality begs for your honesty amidst these lies
The voiceless girl dies all alone
The classless has no shoe
The dead young disenfranchised princess
Kills her...
Etched in Marker
It has been etched in stone
That even this shall fade
Obscurity overtakes all in its path
The greatest and most beautiful of humanity
Are often those who are not known
I wish to be one of the obscure
Scribbled in permanent marker on a sheet of paper
Or perhaps upon the human form
So time may overtake me
But I may be noticed by those who truly seek excellence
Often among excellence are...
Wicked
Gravity is a comfort to many
A force of nature keeps us grounded
No matter where our heads may lie
Our feet are always on the ground
Or drawn towards it
Gravity is a sort of weight on shoulders
But also on words and on lives
The orbits of our circles interlock
They weave together and disrupt our points of view
Yet in these cycles crafted of the Earth
Nature takes hold to keep us safe...
The Tragic Loss of a Crippled Infant OR Lullaby...
Enter, stage right, an unnecessarily complicated final class
Eating up the mind and souring all disposition in sight
Welcome to the feast
To the beast
I did mean least
Now I have ceased
In terms of interest and the like
And so my mind has worked inward
And mushed into an infant’s
My mind is spent
Its legs destroyed
Now crippled don’t I stand
And so I die
For want of...
Radioactive Decay
I have reached my half life
I see the future and the past
I stand in the center of time
On a clock face
Where the hands meet and hold
Over the face of all that sees
What is not seen
I take my experiences to reform me
Change is what the goal of life may be
Not to remain where we are at birth
But rather
To go to places our parents have never known
Yet here I stand quite unwilling to move...
Birds Don't Sings, the Beast Just Flies
Birds fly higher when their wings are clipped
Folded down and sent to soar
Alone
And yet they find their mark
Devour it and feed their children
Life circulates
It redirects
It corrects
And in the bird’s hatred of man it finds solace
It finds refuge in the palm
A bird in the hand is worth two insults
So I flipped the broken thing into the sky
And let it fall where it pleased
...
Sexual Frustration
Kiss me love me hold me hug me lick me suck me take me fuck me
I can’t even begin to describe how infuriating life can be
In all forms in all ways because of everything
In every aspect of a life well lived
No writing may happen
As I peel off the labels
Of a water bottle
Waiting for a muse to cum along
So I may be inspired to expend my ink onto the page
I must write or die
I must...
kellynsexual asked: 2, 9.
Anonymous asked: 8, 50, 51
Unwritten Legacy
A blank sheet of paper
A full well of ink
A quillpen still sharp and still full
Ideas unfleshed and unwritten
Unedited verse not given voice
Words floating endlessly in a black see
Of grey matter, black, white and bold
Gold and silver metals intertwining
Something new
Something simple
Something old
A wellspring overflowing into streams
Waterfalls of jewels dancing on tongues still yet...
Reconstruction of Laughter
I find it ever so slightly humorous
How everything changes
And falls apart
But in the fragments of my youth
I find a purpose
A way to rebuild everything better
I find a way pick up all the pieces
Reassemble them into a brighter day
It’s funny how the world turns
And we never notice
But we feel the hand of time laid on our backs
We find comfort in the warm embrace
Of something so...
I know you wanna know ;)
1.Who’s the last person you talked to about sex?
2.Have you ever sat in the back of a police car?
3.Are you stubborn?
4.If you took a drug test right now, would you pass?
5.Who was the last person to be on a bed with you?
6.Do you tend to hold a grudge?
7.Who is the last person that pissed you off?
8.Whats something that bothers you about girls?
9.What’s a fact about the last person that texted you?
10.Who sits in behind you in your math class?
11.Where is the biggest scar on your body?
12.Have you ever been told you were amazing?
13.Would you date someone who was addicted to drugs?
14.When was the last time you fought with your parents?
15.What was the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
16.What would your last name be if you married the last person you texted?
17.Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
18.Who was the last person to play with your hair?
19.Do you get along with girls?
20.Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
21.Who was the last person you kissed on the cheek?
22.Who are your last 4 txts from?
23.Who was the last girl you talked to?
24.Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?
25.Would you ever get plastic surgery?
26.Do you speak any other languages other than English?
27.What was the last lie you told your mother?
28.Have you ever had to call the cops on someone?
29.What was the last compliment you received?
30.Have you talked to a bitch today?
31.Are your parentsdivorced?
32.Have you had sex today?
33.Do you judge people you don’t know?
34.Are you a bad influence?
35.Is there anyone that’s in love with you right now?
36.Would you ever live with any of your best friends?
37.How many people in your life have you kissed?
38.Are you photogenic?
39.Does anyone know a really deep and dark secret about you?
40.Do you use birth control pills?
41.When was the last time you went to a funeral?
42.Has one of your boyfriends best friends ever tried to get with you?
43.What do you receive the most compliments on?
44.Do you currently owe anyone money?
45.Would you ever marry anyone for their money?
46.Do you usually have a lot of drama in your life?
47.Who do you think is the most attractive actor?
48.How old is the last person you kissed on the lips?
49.Have you ever walked away from someone who was yelling at you?
50.Are you 100% over the last person you kissed?
51.What’s one thing you don’t like about yourself?
52.Have you told anyone that you missed them lately?